At every moment God seeks entry into your heart. He gives you the opportunity to be part of his kingdom. You are offered the opportunity to live in the kingdom of light, the very kingdom of God, or to go your own way and walk on still in the darkness.
Why do you not choose? Why not leave the darkness and walk in hope? Leave your loneliness and learn to walk with God.David Adam ~ The Path of Light
I have been guilty this year of neglecting attentive prayer.
I have prayed. Oh, have I prayed. Yet, as I look back over the year I realise that it has all been productive prayer i.e. prayer for
a my purpose.
Prayers for my needs.
Prayers for the church.
Prayers for the world.
Prayers during pastoral visits.
Prayers from the lectionary.
Prayers for the pray-ers.
I have prayed. Oh have I prayed. And God has been faithful.
God has been there for me. In a big way. But in my busyness, I have often only been half present with my wandering thoughts and divided attention.
There have been, it seems, so many things more pressing than attentive prayer – with the result that I have dislocated myself from the divine presence; placed myself in hell by attending to all the pressing things (even the really good and noble things) before attending to the presence of God that is my hope and my redemption.
So, this morning, as I lay quite still upon my bed, I affirmed that “the Lord is here” and gave myself up to the silence. At which point, my stomach rumbled. Loudly. And the neighbours’ dogs began barking. And Little Cat hopped up to purr a happy hello.
“The Lord is here,” I muttered again and again, as if it were a wish – no, a command! – rather than a reality.
My stomach gurgled. The dogs a little further up the street took up the call. The garbage truck passed by. And Little Cat curled up against my side, a warm and welcome lump of love …
… which is when I felt it. Like soft light through wind-stirred leaves, God embraced me. And my soul smiled.T
The Lord is here.
The Lord is.